What the HeCk!!!

This girl whom i fancy ,always asks me ‘Why do you like me?’.. several brainstorming moments passed,i was CLUELESS.I tell myself ...well there are several reasons.i feel comfortable with her wasnt my best one,yeah,i know, what was i thinking!!My buddy had better things to say about girls, like sharing the vibe around them everytime they are near you,the good ones he meant.It would feel great to find the person destined for you,to be with your special someone.But the real question is ,what if you dont find your someone .. and what if you do find someone and you arent the special one for her.
Its not really easy to put up in words but there will two or three instances in your life when you really have that extraordinary feelings for somebody,feelings that arent easy to express ,situations neither you or she will have any idea about(because she wont ever know about that). But one thing is for sure, that period will also be one you are sure to cherish for a long time ,whatso ever be the outcome.The whole idea of love goes over my head ,how can people who just met 2 months back ,know that they are in love ,it could be just attraction or one of thems crazy fantasy they cant resist..Also people who have known each other for ages but had no warmth suddenly develop feelings that are inexplicable.Controlling the desire to be with someone is far beyond the limits of a common everyday man but what is neccessary, is the idea ‘ what leads upto that desire’.Is it looks??or personality?or is it the just being at the right place at the right moment??sometimes a simple glance or a smile might just be enough to spread the magic.Whatever it is, i really hope this is the last boring piece i write....
All our young lives we search for someone to love..someone who is in the crowd but different from it.We watch other people,see them happy and hope we will be like them,happy.We expect a series of fortunate events that would lead upto that condition..we sometimes expect miracles.....We search for someone to be comfortable with,someone to talk to...someone to dance with.What we dont think is that maybe someone is looking for us,to be happy with us,to talk to us..to dance with us.Lets come back to the big question..THE definition of love!well of all the deep pow wowz i have had wid my very cool buddy we havent been able to decipher its real meaning.Another of them just defines it as crush till its one sided and we call it love only when two people have mutual liking for each other and both know about it, thats the important part!!!So when i think what i have in my case is just a crush which is going to fade away (thats what they say)the thought, does not feel good and believe me when i say that its not everyday i have this liking or obsession(thats what she calls it) for someone..And if somebody asks me to explain this kind of feeling..the closest i come to putting it in words is when it is at its height its like spreading your arms out and far and rotating your whole body round and round till your head feels heavy and when you become still ,you fall!!!And that falling part, people ,is what you actually enjoy.It can change you for good or maybe for worse,but change is envitable.Your choices go under a drastic turn..your favourite genre of movies change from thriller,drama to romance and chick flicks..you listen to elvis ,beatles(no offence) instead of mettalica ,iron maiden(gimme a break ,i am 19,i am supposed to listen to it),you become a monk,you avoid fights and the most important part -you are always short of words!!!So even when you want to talk to somebody you are actually thinking of something else and the other person thinks you are retarded.While talking to her you either keep babbling and make fool out of yourself or you keep your mouth shut longer than required because you are thinking that you are in those moments of silence in which you hear more than you talk,but thats not what is happening !!What i mean to say is that you cant go being pessimistic or optimistic..what you got to think is that the other person is like you ,someone with a functional brain(so dont be too much hopeful) and a human heart (so dont lose your hopes just now).And you cant forget patience is name of the game,if you can wait, its good for you too..that way you can be sure.love at first sight doesnt exist..its a Myth!!But if and when you are sure of somebody,do whatever in your strength and maybe more to make that person feel special and care for her with full honesty..thats what i think.And there will be the usual crap you will get from your friends to make things go faster or slower,wateva or even to give less importance to her just prove to your existance ..that might even work but believe me that way ,the only person you are not honest to ,is yourself.There is nothing more relevant that liking somebody ,so if you are really in for the real thing,just go for it,you might fail but there are chances that you may wind up in something great.So take your chance, believe me even HITLER had someone who loved him,and boy,was she hot or what!!